Saturday, January 15, 2011

maluha-luhang mata


ang kulit ko kasi. malay ko bang ayaw pala niyang pinapakialamanan yung buhok niya? nangilid tuloy yung luha ko. inipitan ko kasi siya. kala ko okay lang. di pala. nagtampo pa ko. medyo tagal kong tumahimik habang yakap siya. hanggang sa pumayag na siyang guluhin ko yun at paglaruan kahit kelan ko gusto. hahahaha

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

January 10, 2010




Today's Mr. Felix Octa's 20th (according to him, twen'teen'th) Birthday. hoho

i waited for 12midnight and sent him my birthday message. he told me it was not his birthday yet because it was not 2am. i waited for 2 hours and sent my birthday message again. then we decided to sleep. woke up at around 7:45 and saw his usual 'good morning :)' message. i wished him good luck for his basketball game at 9am. i prepared for school and left the house. i told him i'll be dating someone. haha. but he knew that was a joke. my real plan was to get his, supposedly, surprise birthday present at 10am at Rob Manila. that gift's overdue, joke. i don't know how to call it but i'm supposed to get it yesterday lunch but i was not able to do it. so i decided to get it as early as i can so i can go to national bookstore for its wrapper? whaha i was scared 'cause i'm not sure if Green Lantern's really his favorite hero. my original plan was the image of batman then i recalled him saying Green (something) is his favorite. He even wants to watch the film this 2011. i looked for the trailer and yeah, i got it right! it was Green Lantern :P YEHEY! still, i don't know. i'm still scared and i don't know if i'm right :P i'm nervous about his comment. it's hard to look for something for someone who has everything he wanted to have. a personalized shirt was the gift that i hoped would make him happy.

when i got the shirt, i looked and immediately paid for the gift wrap materials (wrapper, blue ribbon, card). then i went to school. i have no one with me so i preferred to stay at the library. few minutes after, i wanted to eat. i asked all my friends if they can eat with me but no one is available. i don't have the guts to text him so i asked his classmate, ate Kc. luckily, she was free. she told me stories about her ex's and etc.

after eating, he asked me to inform him. i did so. i told him that i'll stay in the library. so he said, he'll stay with me. instead of me going at his place, socscie, i asked him to go at my place, filipiniana. yeah, i'm so maarte. i know.

i was not able to study. hate him haha. he embraced me made me his pillow. 'cause i'm fat :'(

i didn't give his gift. i don't know how to.

when it turned 3pm, we went to the AB building. it was the first time we entered the building together at the same time.

my first class was done. it's my second class's turn. i got a text from his asking how was class? i told him i'm hungry, then i sent another message saying "magpakita ka sakin bago umuwe (see me before you go home)." i don't know where i got the guts to text that. haha. then he said "i will po."

he waited for our class to finish. he waited for my friends to come and be ready to go home. he asked me to eat dinner with him and i said okay. so, i decided to give my gift after dinner.

we went home. we ate dinner. then i gave his gift :P i really don't know what's happening with me. i'm really nervous. haha.

funny part1. he said he knew that i'll be giving a gift. he knew it when i asked him to see him before going home. darn it.

funny part2. i told him i'm not sure if he'll like whatever's inside that box (my gift). he said whatever's inside he'll love it. then i told him, i don't know. i wish. he asked me what that gift was. i gave him clues. i told him it's his favorite (ata?) then he asked if it's Green Lantern then i embraced him! yey! i got it right!

i thought he'll be surprised. unfortunately, he was not. haha bwisit.

photos by him posted in his tumblr account: http://fudgethewin.tumblr.com/post/2694566841

NATUTUKAN NA PINAGTATAWANAN PA

Unang araw ng eskwela sa ikalawang taon ko sa kolehiyo. Pagkapasok ko sa aming silid-aralan, kaagad akong sumigaw kasabay ng agos ng luhang tila walang katapusan. Takot na takot na hawak ang cell phone. Iniuntog ko ang ulo ko at hinampas ang pader na walang kalaban-laban na parang bang nababaliw at kailangan ng ikulong sa pulang bubong sa Bataan. Lahat nagulat. Lahat nagtaka. Marahil yung iba pa nga ay nainis sa ingay na aking ibinungad sa kanila.

“Ano ba’ng nangyare?” tanong ng aking kamag-aral habang tinatawagan ko ang aking nakatatandang kapatid na babae.

Sumagot na ang aking ate, “Oh, bakit?”

“Nahold-up ako ate!” ang sagot ko habang nanginginig sa takot.

“Huh? Pano nangyare ‘yon?” tanong ng aking kapatid.

“Pagkapuno ng sinasakyan kong jeep sa Lawton, may dalawang batang lalake na sumabit na biglang naglabas ng matalim na kutsilyo at itinutok sa amin isa-isa.”

Sabi pa nung isa, “Pasensya na, nangangailangan lang.”

“Nakaupo ako sa gitna. Halos puro babae ang pasahero. Meron mang lalake, malambot naman. Akala ko pa nga nasa ‘Wow Mali’ ako. Hinihintay kong may lumabas at sabihing ‘tingnan niyo ang camera’. Pero nung nasa tulay na kami, doon ko naramdamang seryoso na pala. Totoo na pala.”

Gulat na gulat ang aking ate pati na rin ang aking mga kamag-aral na nakikinig habang ako’y nagsasalita. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit bakas sa kanilang mga mukha ang pagtataka.

Iniisip ko, “bakit parang ayaw nila akong paniwalaan?”

Hindi ko maramdaman ang awa at pag-aalala na dapat sana’y ipinapadama sa taong walang malay na sumakay ng jeep at biglang tinutukan ng kutsilyo habang nag-iisip at humihiling na sana’y mayroon siyang gwapong kaklaseng makatabi sa bagong taon ng kanyang pag-aaral.

“Totoo? Anong nakuha sayo?” nagtatakang tanong ng aking ate.

“Nakuha ang buong bag nung ate sa may pintuan. Nung una cell phone at pitaka lang pero dahil nanlaban yung katabi ko gamit ang baon niyang pepper spray nasaksak nung bata yung babae sa may pintuan at pilit kinuha ang kanyang bag.”

“Oh? Pero ano ngang nakuha sayo?”

“Wala?” ang nagtataka kong sagot.

Noon ko lang naisip at naintindihan kung bakit habang inilalahad ko ang para sa aki’y nakakatakot na istorya ay kaharap ko ang mga taong takang taka at pigil na pigil sa pagtawa. Hindi nga naman pala maituturing na hold-up ang nangyare. Kung iispin, wala akong karapatang sumigaw at mag-iiyak dahil wala nga palang nakuha sa akin. Hawak ko nga pala ang aking cell phone na regalo pa sa akin ng aking mga magulang nang magtapos ako ng haiskul. Nasa bag ko ang pitaka ko laman ang baon kong ipambibili ko sana ng almusal. Nasa akin din ang pinakaiingatan kong I.D. na madalas kasamang nakukuha sa mga estudyanteng, katulad ko, ay natutukan. Walang dugong sumisirit sakin dahil hindi naman ako ang nasaksak ng kutsilyong itinutok sa amin ng batang nangangailangan.

Wala. Walang nangyareng masama sa akin. Natutukan ako. Buhay pa ako. Nakapagsasalita, kausap ang aking ate at aking mga kamag-aral. Mayroong pambili ng almusal at I.D. na ipinangswipe para makapasok sa gusali ng aming eskwelahan.

Ang tanging nasabi ko na lang sa aking ate at sa aking mga kamag-aral, “Hindi pala ako nahold-up. Akala ko lang.”

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

My KitKat :P

This Kitkat was given by Mr. Felix Octa today (January 5, 2011). It was the first gift i received from him this year. hoho.

note: it's from Japan :P sweet :P

My 2011 Planner :P


The Relaks, Puso Lang Yan, Malayo sa Bituka Planner 2011

I would like to thank Mr. Felix Octa for helping me find this planner.

I would like to thank Mr. Felix Octa for finding time to get this planner and bring it in our house last December 29, 2010.

Thanks to Mr. Felix Octa, now i am ready to doodle :P

Saturday, January 1, 2011

my dream blue house

today's January 1, 2011. i spent the first day of the year in the Blue House Cafe.

well, my reason of so is because i need to surf the net and look for our thesis' related studies. i wanna stay somewhere peaceful and somewhere my globe tattoo will have it's signal and be fast enough for me not to lose my temper.

it was cold there. take note, there was no air conditioner. it's an open space, surrounded with different plants so wonderful that i cannot stop myself from dreaming of having my very own blue house someday.

then my sister, Ate Dedette, my mother, Mama Ester, my brother, Kuya Mark, his wife, Ate Nellie, and my niece, Baby Yomi, came to fetch me.

it's funny because it was our first time there, instead of immediately going home, my Mama decided to try out anything in their menu. i shared my nachos with them and it seemed that they liked it so they ordered another. my Mama tasted my Mocha Kiss and she said it was good. she ordered 4 clubhouse sandwiches. my sister requested for a salad, i cannot remember what salad that was. also, she ordered a 'sloppy burger' wondering what that would be. as for her drink, she asked for a peppermint mocha, i think? haha. i must be frank, i didn't like the of that peppermint drink. actually i hate anything with that weird taste.

while waiting for the orders to be served, i played with my niece and took pictures of her around the cafe.

when we're finally done eating, my sister paid the bill, though it was really my Mama's money (haha). i got the nachos, our pasalubong for my Kuya Jp. bbye blue house cafe. :P

With my mama :P
i just wanna take a solo picture :P
with my banoffee pie :P
with my Mocha Kiss :P
a solo picture again :P

ang drama ko kay APRIL ANNE DIZON :P


APRIL ANNE, welcome for everything. For being there for me always, thank you. For being a good friend, a super good friend, thank you. For sharing your dreams with me, thank you. For your daily jokes, thank you. For you as a wonderful and an incomparable gift from God, thank you. My dear APRIL ANNE, no matter what shit you face in your life, always think of me (CHAR!), think of those times that we cannot stop ourselves from dreaming, from smiling, from screaming out our happiness. think of those memories and pray. God will never leave us, this year, next year, and forever. We'll be your friends always and forever. We'll be loving you always and forever. I love you everyday!