If only I could

by Kat Ongoco
May 1, 2012

I want to fall. I really do.
But you should push me.
Hard,
and exhaust your every strength.

I want to cry. I must cry.
But I am now different.
Not the girl from highschool
nor from college anymore.

I want to say something.
Those three words.
But my heart and my mind,
they are holding me tight.

I want to hate, you. Of all person.
But you do things that I love.
You give me what I need
and offer all you can.

I have to decide. Yes or no?
Ask myself if this is possible.
Hate myself for hurting you,
more than trice.

I have to open my eyes. Both of them.
Look deeper into my heart.
Search for the answers,
not for more unhelpful questions.

I have to ask Him. How?
How will this story end?
Perhaps, I am more interested to ask,
how am I gonna make it right?

Kung Ikaw ay Mawawala, Hiling ko’y Saka na Lamang

by Kat Ongoco 

February 25, 2012

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang

Dahil kaming mga nagmamahal,

Tiyak kong mababahiran

Ng lubos na kalungkutan.

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang.

Napakarami pa ng pasko, bagong taon

At kaarawan na ika’y aming

Nais na makasama.

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang.

Pangarap mo para sa akin, heto’t akin

pang unti-untingpinaghihirapan,

Nang medalya’y sa iyo maibigay.

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang.

Utang kong buhay, Di man mababayaran

Ng kahit anong salapi o bagay

Tiyak na matutumbasan ng tagumpay.

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang.

Sapagkat ang labis na pagmamahal

Ay aking tutumbasan, hanggang sa

huling pagsilay sa maaliwalas na mukha.

Ang Nasa Itaas

by Kat Ongoco
February 13, 2012

Pwede kang sumigaw,
walang pipigil sayo.

Kung nais mong umiyak,
malayang ipikit ang mga mata.

Kapag gustong sumayaw,
iindak ang iyong katawan.

Sa tinig na narinig sa radyo,
maaaring iyong sabayan.

Pero kung nais mong maglaho,
tumingin muna sa paligid mo.

Kung inaakalang walang dirinig,
subukang magsalita at mangausap.

Kung masyadong mabigat,
ipikit panandali ang mga mata.

Gamitin ang buong katawan,
upang maipabatid ang nadarama.

Gamitin ang puso at isip,
kung ninanais makarinig.

Kung nais maging masaya,
pagmasdan ang nasa itaas.

Ang Inakala, mali pala.

by Kat Ongoco
February 13, 2012

Kung inaakala mong tapos na
ang ingay na naririnig mo
mula sa kapitbahay,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong titila na
ang ulan na mula pa
kaninang tanghalian,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong patapos na
ang oras ng klase at di na
matatawag ng guro,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong ang konting
ngiti mo bilang kandidato
ay makakakuha ng boto,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong ang pag-inom
ng alak ay makakatulong
sa paglimot ng problema,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong pag-umiyak ka
ngayon ay matatapos na ang
lahat ng problema,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong ang pagtunganga
ay lubos na makakatulong
para maging masaya,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong iniwan ka
NIYA dahil sa sakit ng
hampas ng hangin sa iyong mukha,
MALI KA.

Nine West vs Calvin Klien

I have decided to use the Nine West wallet that my sister bought in New York for me because I don’t want my Calvin Klien wallet (a gift from my BS who is in New York as well) to be overused.

Initially, I planned to use this wallet after graduation but because I honestly think my CK wallet needs a substitute, I grabbed this wallet from my cabinet and intended to use it before its too late.

I actually find it handier, though its size doubled the size of my CK because it is not as bulky as the latter brand. It also has more card pockets, a purse for my coins, more space for important receipts and post-its compared with the CK

Still, nothing can match the value that my CK wallet has. It was a gift from one of the best girls in my life and I’ll forever be grateful for it.

Big thanks to my sister for my Nine West wallet, as always. J

iPANEMA

I now hate Havaianas and am now in love with iPANEMA slippers. Why? Because I find iPANEMA slippers stronger than the former brand. Out of 4 Havaianas that I had, none lasted for more than a year and 3 of them were “napigtas”.

I don’t know? Is it because of me? Am I and my Havaianas slippers not meant for each other? or Is it just because of the quality of the slippers?

Anyhow, I have decided to invest my money with iPANEMA slippers. Haha

(This post was supposedly one of my 2011’s posts. I only forgot to publish this. Anyway, this is just random, not that important. haha)

Post-Its

It’s funny how my life depends on my colorful POST-ITs lately. Every time a friend of mine sees my bag, my study table in our house or my cabinet containing my school materials he or she seems to be fascinated with all the post-its that I have. I myself wonder why I have all those post-its and how I managed to have them.

Back in high school, whenever I visit my sister in her office in Manila, I always ask her why she has those colorful papers hanging in her wall. I remember telling her how “kalat” (messy) her room looks with those papers partnered with her “pangit” (ugly) handwriting (this is a joke. My sister’s handwriting is really good).

When I entered college, I have observed that most of my classmates also have those colorful papers in their bags, sometimes even attached to their notebooks or planners. I even asked one of my classmates a very stupid question, “what are those for?” haha

Now, in my last year in college, actually last month, I have realized how important post-its are and how those which I used to call messy and senseless papers helped me in organizing my everyday life.

Post-its became my companion in every task I needed to accomplish. I used them to remind me with home works, birthdays, tasks for extra-curricular activities, tasks for other organizations and most importantly, I used them to express my love to people, especially to my friends.

You see, post-its are not only papers which we use to remind us of the tasks that we should do. Those messy and colorful papers are also useful in reminding our friends, family and loved ones of how important they are to us.

Last Christmas (2011), I find it really funny when I realized that most of the gifts that I have received from my friends, my family, and even from my sister’s friends are post-its. This clearly manifests how obvious my attachment with post-its is. Haha

Keep buying post-its and keep sharing them to people, with much love. J

This is a post-it I decided to buy with April Flor Borlagdatan (my college friend)

-Kat Ongoco