If only I could

by Kat Ongoco
May 1, 2012

I want to fall. I really do.
But you should push me.
Hard,
and exhaust your every strength.

I want to cry. I must cry.
But I am now different.
Not the girl from highschool
nor from college anymore.

I want to say something.
Those three words.
But my heart and my mind,
they are holding me tight.

I want to hate, you. Of all person.
But you do things that I love.
You give me what I need
and offer all you can.

I have to decide. Yes or no?
Ask myself if this is possible.
Hate myself for hurting you,
more than trice.

I have to open my eyes. Both of them.
Look deeper into my heart.
Search for the answers,
not for more unhelpful questions.

I have to ask Him. How?
How will this story end?
Perhaps, I am more interested to ask,
how am I gonna make it right?

Kung Ikaw ay Mawawala, Hiling ko’y Saka na Lamang

by Kat Ongoco 

February 25, 2012

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang

Dahil kaming mga nagmamahal,

Tiyak kong mababahiran

Ng lubos na kalungkutan.

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang.

Napakarami pa ng pasko, bagong taon

At kaarawan na ika’y aming

Nais na makasama.

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang.

Pangarap mo para sa akin, heto’t akin

pang unti-untingpinaghihirapan,

Nang medalya’y sa iyo maibigay.

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang.

Utang kong buhay, Di man mababayaran

Ng kahit anong salapi o bagay

Tiyak na matutumbasan ng tagumpay.

Kung ikaw ay mawawala,

Hiling ko’y saka na lamang.

Sapagkat ang labis na pagmamahal

Ay aking tutumbasan, hanggang sa

huling pagsilay sa maaliwalas na mukha.

Ang Nasa Itaas

by Kat Ongoco
February 13, 2012

Pwede kang sumigaw,
walang pipigil sayo.

Kung nais mong umiyak,
malayang ipikit ang mga mata.

Kapag gustong sumayaw,
iindak ang iyong katawan.

Sa tinig na narinig sa radyo,
maaaring iyong sabayan.

Pero kung nais mong maglaho,
tumingin muna sa paligid mo.

Kung inaakalang walang dirinig,
subukang magsalita at mangausap.

Kung masyadong mabigat,
ipikit panandali ang mga mata.

Gamitin ang buong katawan,
upang maipabatid ang nadarama.

Gamitin ang puso at isip,
kung ninanais makarinig.

Kung nais maging masaya,
pagmasdan ang nasa itaas.

Ang Inakala, mali pala.

by Kat Ongoco
February 13, 2012

Kung inaakala mong tapos na
ang ingay na naririnig mo
mula sa kapitbahay,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong titila na
ang ulan na mula pa
kaninang tanghalian,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong patapos na
ang oras ng klase at di na
matatawag ng guro,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong ang konting
ngiti mo bilang kandidato
ay makakakuha ng boto,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong ang pag-inom
ng alak ay makakatulong
sa paglimot ng problema,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong pag-umiyak ka
ngayon ay matatapos na ang
lahat ng problema,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong ang pagtunganga
ay lubos na makakatulong
para maging masaya,
mali ka.

Kung inaakala mong iniwan ka
NIYA dahil sa sakit ng
hampas ng hangin sa iyong mukha,
MALI KA.

Nine West vs Calvin Klien

I have decided to use the Nine West wallet that my sister bought in New York for me because I don’t want my Calvin Klien wallet (a gift from my BS who is in New York as well) to be overused.

Initially, I planned to use this wallet after graduation but because I honestly think my CK wallet needs a substitute, I grabbed this wallet from my cabinet and intended to use it before its too late.

I actually find it handier, though its size doubled the size of my CK because it is not as bulky as the latter brand. It also has more card pockets, a purse for my coins, more space for important receipts and post-its compared with the CK

Still, nothing can match the value that my CK wallet has. It was a gift from one of the best girls in my life and I’ll forever be grateful for it.

Big thanks to my sister for my Nine West wallet, as always. J

iPANEMA

I now hate Havaianas and am now in love with iPANEMA slippers. Why? Because I find iPANEMA slippers stronger than the former brand. Out of 4 Havaianas that I had, none lasted for more than a year and 3 of them were “napigtas”.

I don’t know? Is it because of me? Am I and my Havaianas slippers not meant for each other? or Is it just because of the quality of the slippers?

Anyhow, I have decided to invest my money with iPANEMA slippers. Haha

(This post was supposedly one of my 2011’s posts. I only forgot to publish this. Anyway, this is just random, not that important. haha)

Post-Its

It’s funny how my life depends on my colorful POST-ITs lately. Every time a friend of mine sees my bag, my study table in our house or my cabinet containing my school materials he or she seems to be fascinated with all the post-its that I have. I myself wonder why I have all those post-its and how I managed to have them.

Back in high school, whenever I visit my sister in her office in Manila, I always ask her why she has those colorful papers hanging in her wall. I remember telling her how “kalat” (messy) her room looks with those papers partnered with her “pangit” (ugly) handwriting (this is a joke. My sister’s handwriting is really good).

When I entered college, I have observed that most of my classmates also have those colorful papers in their bags, sometimes even attached to their notebooks or planners. I even asked one of my classmates a very stupid question, “what are those for?” haha

Now, in my last year in college, actually last month, I have realized how important post-its are and how those which I used to call messy and senseless papers helped me in organizing my everyday life.

Post-its became my companion in every task I needed to accomplish. I used them to remind me with home works, birthdays, tasks for extra-curricular activities, tasks for other organizations and most importantly, I used them to express my love to people, especially to my friends.

You see, post-its are not only papers which we use to remind us of the tasks that we should do. Those messy and colorful papers are also useful in reminding our friends, family and loved ones of how important they are to us.

Last Christmas (2011), I find it really funny when I realized that most of the gifts that I have received from my friends, my family, and even from my sister’s friends are post-its. This clearly manifests how obvious my attachment with post-its is. Haha

Keep buying post-its and keep sharing them to people, with much love. J

This is a post-it I decided to buy with April Flor Borlagdatan (my college friend)

-Kat Ongoco

Cypher 2012

Hindi man kami nahirang na champion, alam kong sa puso ng lahat ng mga sumuporta sa amin, kami ang panalo. I congratulate CYPHER 2012's Champion, AB-JOURN BEATS and LEX BAILE (second runner-up) for winning.

Of course, I congratulate the first runner-up of CYPHER 2012! TPSF's CRITICAL!!!

My Dream SUPERMAN Hoodie

I wish to have a SUPERMAN HOODIE, any color! Please Lord? Kahit pambili lang bilang naubos na lahat lahat ng pera ko at savings ko dahil sa CYPHER sa sobrang pagmamahal sa CRITICAL.

The story behind this jacket:

Pagpasok sa room 101 ng AB building, naghahanap ako ng upuan at nakakita ako sa second row. Then I looked at the guy beside me and was at awe when I saw his HOODIE!!! Grabeng tumalon ang puso ko. Assuming that he is a Political Science student, I grabbed the opportunity to ask him kung san niya binili yung hoodie. Pero tinanong ko muna kung anong major niya, just to clear things out only to find out that he's from CA! Gosh! Nawalan ako ng pag-asa! But because "kung gusto maraming paraan" I still asked him where he bought his hoodie. He said he bought it on-line and he offered to give me the site (facebook: BALLER VAULT II). Then, of course, I thanked him! haha

Very funny talaga! 

Spent the Night with my Dearest Friends

I'm actually so tired because I came from a training which started from 11am and ended at 10pm. I actually missed a lot today:

1. Our class' meeting for our GEP documentary
2. The neo-centennial mass with Archbishop Socrates Villegas in UST (this is heartbreaking)
3. The fireworks display in the Arch
4. The 400th year closing concert for all Thomasians

Well, this is what I get from joining competitions such as Cypher. I always have to sacrifice things because I cannot do two things at the same time. But nevertheless, I should always keep in mind that I chose this path, so I shall not complain.

This is a blessing from God and His plans will always prevail. Besides, whatever talent or gift that I have now came from Him and each connotes a responsibility that I should fulfill.

Thank God, I have my friends with me always. They are my precious gems, and I will  never hesitate to spend a night with them, knowing that it'll be one of those extraordinary and memorable nights that shall be treasured  as we live.

 with my ever loving Pakner, Jester Ivan Ricafrente

 Apap, my college bestfriend, and Reg, my college daughter

 Our lovers for the night

Apap and Stephen

 Our storyteller for the night

Pakner

 Pakner's pogi pose

Doesn't look like he's facing a storm right? haha 

 Sleeping beauties :)

Bea, me and Reg

 HEY! It's me :P

This is how they show their love for me. Darn it!

This is how awful I look while sleeping, especially when I'm so damn tired. 

 Boss Robin and Sleepy Mia

 Apap, Reg and Bea

Mia, the owner of the orphanage :) haha

Lord,
I thank you for giving us the talent to perform. Thank you for giving me good friends, for surrounding me with people who are never tired of helping and supporting us. I thank you for answering our prayers always, especially in times when we feel so helpless and we almost gave up.
I pray for your forgiveness for all our shortcomings.
I pray for your guidance and for your unconditional love, that you may continue to bless us as we strive to give back to the forum and, most especially, to You.

#Goodnight #Godbless

Yomi's Post-Birthday Celebration

This is a video of Yomi singing "Happy Birthday" while holding her cake. :)


Yomi had her post-birthday celebration last January 27, 2012 with my sister (Ate Dedette) and her papa (Kuya Mark) & mama (Ate Nellie) in Kangaroo Jack, Robinsons Place Manila.

I went home super late so I was not able to join them. Thank God, they decided to sleep in our unit so I was able to play, kiss and hug my little Yomi the next day.

Lord, thank you for keeping our angel safe always.
Thank you for giving her another year to learn new things and another year to make our family, especially her lolas and lolos, happy all the time.
May you continue to guide her and bless her with your unconditional love, everyday.

#Goodnight #Godbless

The University of Santo Tomas 400 Years Closing Pyromusical

The University of Santo Tomas 400 Years Closing Pyromusical. Cheers to a new century ahead for the Pontifical and Royal Catholic university of the Philippines! And the oldest existing university in Asia!

Credit goes to Dragon Fireworks Inc for the video

12th KitKat Flavor

I just ate my 12th KitKat today. It is the Kitkat Chunky Caramel flavor and its way better than the original flavor. How I wish its already available here in the Philippines.

Sorry for my netbook's cam. :P

My KitKat Collection

Everybody knows how much I love KitKat chocolates especially my sister. Even her friends knew my addiction with it so they always give me pasalubong when they do their business outside the country.

Here's my latest KitKat Collection

 as of now, I have a total of 11 different flavors

 The Chunky Hazelnut Cream

 Apple Flavor

 Banana Flavor

 KitKat Senses (without crackers)

 Dark KitKat

 Wasabe Flavor

 Strawberry Flavor

 Melon Flavor

 Cherry blossoms Flavor

Wasabe Flavor

Pop Choc (just like the KitKat bites in the Philippines)

Aside from the KitKat Senses, which was given by Atty. Mildred (MLA) to me, all other KitKat flavors were  my sister's pasalubong for me. haha

I'm now in love with kids

I love to take pictures of them, especially when they smile and play with the things around them. Here are some of my favorite photos of kids.

Photos I took during 4Political Science1's Christmas Party in Capitol Estate II, QC (December 13, 2011)

Photos I took during PPC's Christmas Party in Ermita :)

I don't even know who this kid was, I just talked to him, played with him and took pictures of him.

Isn't he cute?

My Disorganized Closet

I really think my closet needs to be fixed before New Year. That is, if I don't want bad luck to welcome me next year. hahaha

I also think I should donate some of my clothes to the victims of Typhoon Sendong. 

God bless! :)

100 PUSH UPS + 100 CRUNCHES = DEATH

Because we are not going to have our training this December 22 (thursday), Kuya Gino, our trainer, gave us an assignment.


"ASSIGNMENT: atleast 100 push ups, atleast 100 crunches per day, do it within 30 mins. kayo bahala sa rests
Hindi ko kau mamomonitor kung gagawin niyo to or not pero mahahalata natin kung sino ang mga lumalakas na dancers,, so ipakita nyo ung dedication nyo,, let me remind you na defending champion ang group nyo.
By january gagawin nyo yang conditioning na yan in front of me,, so by that time hindi na dapat kayo nahihirapan since sanay na dapat kayo non.. and iiincrease natin to 150 parehas yun.. you better start early :)"

I tried to do this today but I failed. I can't complete 100 push ups so I did 200 crunches instead. I don't know how to do push ups correctly. I wanna die now (of course, I kid).

My body is so tired, but I still managed to do this blog? Funny right?

I just don't want to miss this day, the very first day that I tried to do 70 push ups and 200 crunches within 30 minutes. The day i tried to kill my self. hahaha

I wish to learn how to do push ups correctly. My back is aching and I wanna go to the hospital. I wish to wake up at 2am later and still manage to serve for the Simbang Gabi in Ermita Shrine.

By the way, before I did this, i checked how to do crunches first (the right and safe one).
Check these out :)

Not Now

I definitely don't want to fall in love with someone yet. Not now. Not in my last year as a college student. Not during my hell month and my hell year. Not with all the readings and thesis. Definitely not this academic year.

So you should wait! Wait until I get my diploma and pass the entrance exam in law school.

Margela Seraphine Tria Serrano's Christening

 with our lovely, Baby Ela!

 with our barkada's baby Sherwin

December 18, 2011

St. Joseph Catheral, Balanga City Bataan

I woke up at 3am. I took the shower, didn't bother to use the heater because I should move fast.

I fixed my clothes. Checked my Christening present for Ela and left the house by 5am.

I went to Doroteo Jose Station of Genesis and took the Balanga Trip. 

The bus left by 6am and I was in Bataan by 8:30am.

I attended the 8:30-9:00am mass and waited for the Tria Family.

The Christening started at 11:00am.

Though it was an exhausting day for me because I had to see my family, of course, before I left for Manila, I was fulfilled because I managed to sacrifice lil time for the people I love. 

Immediately after I came home, my sister and I went to Cash and Carry mall to shop for our week's groceries.