Patawad

by Kat Ongoco

alam kong may pagkakamali
at kailangan itong ituwid,
pagbayaran at huwag ng ulitin

ngunit paano gagawin?
kung ang nabangga'y di nais
makipag-ayos, ni ayaw magpatawad

siguro naman su buong buhay mo
naranasan mo na ang magkamali,
madapa at bumangon muli

sa tingin mo paano yun nangyare?
sa aking palagay, 'yon ay dahil
binigyan ka ng pagkakataong muli

dahil hindi makasarili ang Panginoon,
ang puso niya'y puno ng kabutihan
at hindi kasing tigas ng batong sa'yo

sana matutunan mo ring magpatawad
at magbigay ng pangalawang pagkakataon
sa aming mga nagkulang

di naman palageng perkepkto
sa unang pagsubok at ang lahat
at dumadaan sa pagkakamali

nawa'y bigyan ng chansa at
maayos na ang lahat ng gusot
punan ang bawat butas ng dinaanan

nang sa gayo'y matigil na ang luha
na hindi tumitigil sa pagtulo at muling
makangiti ang taong humingi ng tawad.

Anne Klein

this's my newest baby.

Noong nasa elementary at high-school ako, hindi ako mahilig magsuot ng relo. Pero nung nagsimula na ang karera ko sa buhay dito sa Maynila bilang isang college student, nalaman ko kung gaano kaimportante ang pagkakaroon ng relo.

Sabi ng isa sa mga paborito kong professor sa college, "Time is as precious as gold". Isang katagang lubos na tumatak sa aking isipan. Isang katagang paulit-ulit na bumubulong sa aking tenga sa tuwing ako'y nakatengga lang at nagpapasarap sa buhay. Sa 24 hours na meron sa isang araw, anim (6) na oras ka lang daw dapat natutulog at kung lumampas ka ma'y isa ka ng TAMAD! Yung natitirang labing walong oras (18) naman, hatiin mona sa pagkain, pag-aaral/pagtatrabaho, at kung anu-ano pang mahahalaga mong gagawin para sa isang araw.

Talagang napakahalaga ng oras sa simpleng dahilan na ang bawat lumipas na oras ay hindi na maibabalik pa. Kapag nagawa mo na, nagawa mo na. Kapag sinayang mo na, sinayang mo na. Ang tanging magagawa mo na lang ay ang tanggapin ang mga nangyare at nagawa mo. Maganda man o hindi. Kontento ka man o gusto mong magsisi.

Ganito ka-importante ang oras. Para sa akin, ang oras ang basehan ko ng aking buhay.

Personalized Mug

i bought a plain black mug because i wanted to do something for myself. i decided to paint it with my favorite color, orange. so i ended up with this

Unfortunately, my sister saw my newly painted mug and asked me if i can give it to her. Of course, i wasn't able to say no. After everything she sacrificed for me, after everything she gave me and after everything that she did for me, i can't say no. All i can do is to give this personalized mug for her, as she requested. hahaha

Eto lang afford ko :))

she asked me to paint her name too hahahaha arti

Tinik

by Kat Ongoco

Kung madalas akong nayayamot
sa boses mong gabi-gabing
nakikipagpaligsahan sa katahimikan,
siguro ang tanging dapat gawin
ay hanapin ang konsepto ng
pag-intindi sa iyong pinagdadaanan.

Sa bawat gabi, iba't ibang klase
ang tinik na iyong inilalarawan
sa amin ng aking kapatid.
Mayroong maliit at malaki,
kadalasa'y matalim, nakakahiwa
kaya't ikaw puno ng sakit.

Sa tuwing aking ipinipinta sa isipan
ang mga tinik sa iyong rosas na namumula
ako ay lubos na nagpapasalamat
pagkat ang tinik sa aki'y
hindi kasing talim at sakit ng sa'yo
bagkus mas malambot at kakaunti.

Aking iniisip kung paano kita matutulungan
gayong alam ko namang mas alam mo
ang tamang gamitin upang tanggalin
ang mga tinik na pumapaligid
sa iyong rosas na mas malago
at mas mapula kumpara sa akin.

Siguro ang maari ko lang gawin
ay samahan at tabihan kang
tanggalin ang mga tinik na makapit,
kasi 'di pa kasing ganda ng iyo ang sa akin,
bagong tubo pa kaya't nahihiya pang
tumingala kay haring araw sa langit.

Pagkatapos mong ilarawan ang 

bawat tinik, ka'y aking aayain 

sa kaharian ng ating Kapatid,

ito'y ating ibubulong sa kanya

nang sa gayo'y ang hapdi na dulot ng tinik

tiyak kanyang papawiin at pagagalingin.

Magiging Kampiyon Din Balang Araw

Di lahat ng tao magaling sa unang sabak. Di lahat ng tao nananalo sa unang laban.

Sa nalalabing araw ko sa kolehiyo, hindi ko parin lubos maisip kung bakit ako naririto? Bakit 'pa' ako naririto? Madaming beses ko ng tinangka na umalis. Madaming luha na ang nagpasakit ng aking mata. Madaminf tasa ng kape na ang naging sanhi ng pagkasakit ng tiyan. Kadalasan sa bawat gabi na ako'y nahihirapan, iniisip ko, kung hindi siguro ako tatanga-tanga noong ako'y nasa high school pa siguro masaya ako ngayon. Masaya sa larangang pinili at hindi nagsisisi, ni hindi nahihirapan.

Pero minsan naiisip ko, kung hindi ako pumasok sa mundo ko ngayon, hindi ko makikilala ang mga taong lubos na makapagpapasaya sa akin. Kahit merong ibang taong sumubok sa lakas ng kabig ng aking mahinang puso, kahit my mga taong pilit pinaiinit ang nanlalamig kong kalamnan, kahit may mga taong pinipiling kausapin ang aking katauhan sa kanilang isipan lang, kahit may mga taong hinuhusgahan ako sa bawat larawang kanilang nakikita, alam ko, at alam ng Panginoon, ibang saya ang naramdaman ko.

Dito sa aking madilim na mundo, natutunan kong imulat ang mata ko. Piliting humanap ng liwanag sa kahit pinakamadilim at sa kasulok-sulukan ng bawat silid. Para na akong nagiging isang daga, pilit humahanap ng paraan para makalabas ng buhay sa bahay na pinasukan. Pilit hinahanap ang nangangamoy na keso para maiuwe at makabusog sa nagugutom na tiyan.

Ang tanging sambit ko na lang sa aking sarili, "siguro nga, dito ako nararapat". Eto kasi ang aking kakulangan. Kulang ako sa tiyaga. Wala akong panahong magbasa o magsulat. Ni hindi ko nga alam ang tamang paglalagay ng coma maging ng ibang mga salita. Naging matalik kong kaibigan ang diksyonaryo sa dami ng salitang banyagang hindi ko minarapat intindihin noong ako'y bata pa. Karamihan pa nga, unang beses ko lang nakilala.Pakiramdam ko tuloy, isa ako sa pinakamang-mang na tao sa buong mundo.

Noong medyo bata pa ako, isang matalinong bata ang tingin sa akin ng aking mga guro at kaeskwela. Ngayong nasa kolehiyo na ako, iilan lang ang aking taga-hanga. Iilan lang ang nakakapuna sa aking mga gingawa dahil di hamak na kabilang ako sa mga ordinaryo lamang. Kung may pupuri man, iyon ay dahil sa aking pisikal na itsura. Dahil sa talentong aking ipinapakita sa tuwing ako'y tatapak sa entablado na papanuorin ng lahat.

Pero naniniwala akong hindi lang ako ang may problema sa mundo. Hindi ito ang pinakamabigat na problema. Wala naman akong cancer at malayo-layo pa ang tatahakin. Matagal-tagal pa ang oras na nalalabi. Pwede pang magbago o ipagpatuloy ang nasimulan. Pwede din namang gawin ko parin ang talagang nais gawin sa buhay hanggat kakayanin. Kailangan lamang magtiyaga, dagdagan mo pa ng lakas ng loob at higpitan ang pananalig sa nasa itaas. Alam ko, darating ang araw, na magiging kampiyon din ako sa buhay na iniikot ko. Magiging magaling at mananalo sa laban na kasing bangis at hirap ng boxing. Magiging masaya at makakapagpasaya ng mga taong aking nadaraanan sa bawat araw ng sports o laban na aking pipiliin.

NO ONE TO BLAME

by Kat Ongoco

I want to write what i feel
but I have this fear:
not to satisfy all the people
that'll pass by and read

although i shouldn't care
its my life anyway,
but the world's really brave
strong enough to make
a person break

sometimes i blame myself
why the hell did i not
try reading all those books
in my sister's shelves

why was i not interested
about the evolution of man
and the first ever book
written in the world

why did i spent
so much of my time
with my high-school boyfriend
and with my friends

i cannot blame anyone else
neither can i go back
and turn the pages
of all the books in the shelves

time really is precious
even more precious than gold
it cannot be replaced
nor can be rewinded

the choice is to value,
as if it was your first time
to encounter things
that is different and new

a choice to accept
and learn from the past
over and over again
how important life is

the only hope that i have
is the chance of change,
master the art
by falling in love with it

today, people will hate
every single work that i do
some will judge the words
that i used

but as i continue to
be relieved, because i chose
to write the words and
not to spill

i think i'll see
my long lost friend,
that rainbow in the sky
which i cannot also blame.

Sa Kalsada

by Kat Ongoco

Umulan at umaraw

sa kalsada ika'y nagtitiis

patuloy na nagtatrabaho

para ang buhay sana'y masinagan

kahit kakarampot na liwanag

kaya't ako'y madalas nahahabag

sa bawat kilos na aking ginagawa

ikaw itong puros hirap

ang nadarama, ako naman itong

pera'y nilulustay na tila walang halaga

kaya kuya, saludo ako sa iyo

di  mo alintana ang panganib

maging ang alat ng bawat pawis

mabigyan lang ng ngiti

ang pinagmumulan ng lakas ng bisig

tunay kang kahanga-hanga

dapat ikaw ay hindi kinukutya

tingin ko'y higit kang pinagpala

kaysa sa karamihang

puro saya lang ang nakikita

dalangin ko'y wag mawala ang bituin

sa langit na iyong laging inaasam

ang araw ay muling masisilayan

konting tiyaga sa parating pang ulan

bisig mong subok, tiyak paparangalan.

a message from the Polis' Asst. head (2011-2012)

I found no subjects for revision or correction in your article, it's a good article. It's good that you did not hesitate in citing labor unions. Good job. Thank you. :)

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this' a message from the Polis' Asst. head :) dated August 06, 2011

it's always an honor to be praised by a very good writer like him. honestly, i did not even imagine that he'll be acknowledging my work. i even told my best friend, the Head of the Polis, that i'm scared of the possible comments that her assistant might tell me because i know how great he is especially in the field of writing.
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thank you Lord :)

you're always there to help me. you know that i'm not really good in this field but you're continuously giving me challenges to realize that i can do things i thought i cannot. i know you have your reason/s why i am now taking this field, in spite of the fact that i do not fit here. please always be inside me. help me and continue to guide me.

-Kat

Contractualization: A Way of Life in the Philippines

President Benigno “PNoy” S. Aquino III said in his first State of the Nation Address (SONA) in 2010 that “creating jobs is foremost in our agenda”. Last July 25, 2011, in his second SONA, he declared that the government was able to decrease the unemployment rate by 0.8%.

Now, why did the Kilusang Mayo Uno, a labor-centered organization, slammed the President and said that the scheme of labor is getting worse in the Aquino administration therefore giving his second SONA and the performance of his administration a failing grade of 5? What happened to the social transformation objective of PNoy? What is the real state of the labor industry?

First, the Aquino government allowed the contractualization plan of Lucio Tan’s Philippine Airlines via outsourcing scheme which resulted to a cut back of more than 2, 600 regular workers who were re-hired as contractual workers. Second, the government failed to charge ABS-CBN, a Lopez-owned company, for illegally terminating its more than 100 workers. Third, PNoy retained Bangko Sentral ng Pilipinas Circular No. 268 which outsourced all banking functions and forced its regular employees to lose their jobs and instead, be re-hired as contractuals.

In short, labor contractualization is being acknowledged by PNoy; hence, sooner or later, “this country will be a nation of contractuals”, according to Rogelio Soluta, KMU Secretary-General.

Hostage and Hold-up Victims

Contractual workers are sufferers of contractualization. They are victims of hostage and hold-up of criminal companies. In the latter case, the hold-uppers would kick them out the company and leave them with nothing; likewise, in the former, these workers are forced to choose whether to lose their jobs or stay in the company not as regular employees but as contractuals who are subject to less pay and less benefits.

These workers, through contractualization, are robbed of their rights. For the Koalisyon Laban sa Kontraktwalisasyon, contractualization is viewed as “a practice and an unofficial policy, (which) undermines internally recognized rights of labor, especially security of tenure, right to self-organization and the right to bargain collectively”.

It’s like a “with or nothing situation”. Not even an “all or nothing scenario”. Worst, the current government fails to make these criminal companies accountable to the victims. In contrast to his promise in his first SONA, PNoy is obviously prioritizing those big foreign companies and capitalists, which proves that “the Aquino government does not at all value the Filipino workers and people”, Soluta said.

Challenge for PNOY

Different questions were left unanswered in the second SONA of PNoy. Labor organizations were unsatisfied with his claim in relation to improved job opportunities for this year. Yes, there are job opportunities but most are just temporary so he cannot brag about his administration’s accomplishment regarding the 0.8% decrease in unemployment.  

Unless otherwise he plans to establish a new institution that will promote labor contractualization and unemployment that will continuously rob and deprive the rights of the country’s laborers, the President, together with the Congress, should make substantive reforms and fulfill his promise. Judy Ann Miranda, the Secretary-General of Partido ng Manggagawa, insisted that PNoy should “jumpstart his so-called social transformation agenda by reversing the Office of the President decision on PAL, declaring the security of tenure bill as a priority agenda and implement a massive public employment program”.

Good governance is not only achieved by the eradication of the “wang-wang” system. PNoy’s administration should associate his accountability measures with responsiveness. To be responsive is to be able to provide for the people’s needs, one is a permanent and not a contractual job. The government can only generate more jobs not by accountability alone nor by being just responsive. It is by way of mastering the art of combining the two elements of good governance: accountability and responsiveness.

 Kat Ongoco

August 5, 2011

VERY GOOD
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today's the very first day :) i will forever appreciate these words.

kay sarap ng may katahimikan

ang sarap sa pakiramdam kapag tahimik.

oo, alam ko. aminado ako. isa ako sa mga taong may makakarinding boses at galit sa katahimikan. isa ako sa mga taong sigaw dito, sigaw doon. mahilig akong kumanta ng malakas sa daan, kahit saang kalsada pa yan. sabi nga ng kapatid ko, hindi kompleto ang araw niya kapag di sumasakit ang tenga niya sa matinis at malakas kong boses. pati nga yung mga ka-opisina niya natatawa sakin. sa tuwing pumapasok ako ng kanilang kwarto at babati ng "hello" pinaghalong inis at katatawanan ang nararamdaman nila kasi may taglay na kakaibang tinis at lakas ang boses ko. sinabi kong kakaiba, pero di ko sinasabing maganda.

pero sa oras na kailangang manahimik, pinipilit kong makisama sa aking kapaligiran. halimbawa, kapag nag-aaral ako kasama ang aking mga kaibigan o kaya naman kapag merong nag-uusap na matanda sa aking harapan. kapag ganyan ang sitwasyon, alam ko na kailangan at dapat kong itikom panandali ang aking bibig.

minsan, napaloob nanaman ako sa isang ingkwentro na sumubok sa aking pasensya. alam ko, hindi dahil pagod ako. alam kong sanhi ito ng madalas na paulit-ulit na pangyayari. iniisip ko, nung bata pa kaya sila at kinakailangan nilang mag-aral, naranasan kaya nilang mairita kasi ang ingay ingay ng mga nasa paligid nila? naranasan kaya nila hindi maintindihan kahit iisang salita na binabasa niya? naranasan na kaya nilang takpan ang tenga nila ng sadya para naman mapansin ng taong maingay sa paligid nila na "may nag-aaral po dito, pwede pong wag magsigawan at wag mag-ingay, pwede pong manahimik muna kayo o lumabas na lang kayo at dun magsigawan"? naranasan na kaya nila yan? ewan ko. siguro hindi? pero imposible.

kahit ano pa man, sana lahat ng tao at maging sensitibo sa bawat gagawin nila. kahit uutot ka lang sa isang lugar, kailangan maging sensitibo ko. ramdam mo naman kung may amoy o wala ang utot mo. mas malala siguro yung maamoy ng lahat ang utot mo at isa ka sa pipintas sa sarili mong utot na mabaho kaysa sa lumayo ka lang ng sandali sa mga tao at bumalik ng tahimik, walang nasktang ilong, walang napahamak na kahihiyan.

shhhhhhhh. balik trabaho na ako. tahimik na.

salamat sa Diyos. :)

Grip

Grip
Aubrey Bahala

One knows when one is
Not liked. She can tell it through
The guy’s way of grinning,
With the man’s choice of words.
With how you open the door
For me.

I can tell it with how frequent
You blink or snap, or turn your head
While talking to me.
The way you let me choose where
To eat. All of it tells me.

I can tell it with how you walk beside me
While we’re discovering the city:
Looking at it in detail,
Its vulnerabilities, its imperfections.
Like a child gazing at
an insignificant, unattractive toy.
The way you stare at my tired eyes
As if not seeing anything beautiful.

You must know, after all these years,
After all the guys who’ve been on top of me,
After hearing them promise everything they have
Just to make me happy,
Just to assure me they’re real,
I never hesitated, even once,
To try it with you, time and again.

And I will never forget how ugly the feeling is
Not being liked.
No matter
How hard I
Try.

the morning after

The Morning After
pyro_m

1.

So did you do it?
Yes. In my apartment.

Was he drunk?
Things happen when it’s bottom’s up one too many times

Top or bottom?
We were on a roll.

What did he scream when he came?
Oh God.

Was it good?
The body remembers well.

So you think he loves you?
Where there is lust, there is love. I think.

So where is he now?

2.

For once in your life,
consider not running.

The morning burns
but the escape down the hall

leads to more fire:
cars that smog

the pavement of feet streetlighting
the cold concrete slab –

the scorch, the scorch…
You know how it feels,

the scorch.

3.

So did you do it?
The body remembers well.

Was he drunk?
We were on a roll.

Top or bottom?
Things happen when it’s bottom’s up one too many times

What did he scream when he came?
When there is lust, there is love. I think.

Was it good?
Yes. In my apartment.

So you think he loves you?
Oh God.

So where is he now?

4.

Let the morning rush.
Let the morning rush.

Let the morning rush
the cars, the concrete,

the slab, the smog,
the street, the light.

Let the morning rush
the scorch, the scorch,

always the scorch.
The escape down the hall waits.

But please, let the morning rush
past us.

5.
So did you do it?
Things happen when it’s bottoms up one too many times.

Was he drunk?
When there is lust, there is love I think.

Top or bottom?
Oh God.

What did he scream when he came?
The body remembers well.

Was it good?
We were on a roll.

So you think he loves you?
Yes. In my apartment.

So where is he now?

6.

Was last night the last night?
Can we exist beyond this room?

The morning rushes.
You stand up.

The morning rushes.
You stand up.

The morning rushes
you…

7.

So did you do it?
The body remembers well

Was he drunk?
The body remembers well.

Top or bottom?
The body remembers well

What did he scream when he came?
The body remembers well.

Was it good?
The body remembers well.

So you think he loves you?
The body remembers well.

So where is he now?

8.

…stand up

and rush last night away

And all I am.
Is an apartment

of honking screams, cloak and stagger,
up and bottom, rush and roll,

and the scorch,
always the scorch

of the morning after.

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Message from Ivan (03-03-11)

I LOVE YOU PAKNER!

Let me express that love for you. Monday night, Aure told me to help her tell Jesha if we could mobilize TPSF community to help people in the Bicol Region because they were greatly devastated by the typhoons. When I asked Jesha, she told me that she would give instructions to the Community Development of TPSF. I was greatly surprised when the information has been disseminated that easily.

I saw in the news that until now, many areas in the region are still under water. My heart is with them, I know you too and many other members of TPSF. I tell you pakner, as Jesus told us, that when we do something for the benefit of our brothers and sister, especially the poor and the needy, we are doing it for Him too. I know Jesus smiles in heaven as he sees our unworthy and little undertakings.

I thank you pakner for being so active, generous, and loving. Many people would love you more and I am one of them. As my heart goes to the people in Bicol, let me also express my thanks to you by loving you more.

Salamat sa gawaing ito. This is what the Lord wants us to do. We are only continuing the work that He started two thousand years ago.

THANKS PAKNER. May the Lord be delighted by our sacrifices. Now and always, I LOVE YOU! :))


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from me


hahaha, well, i don't know what to say.

To tell you frankly, your I LOVE YOU is the sweetest i've received But i should let you know that my nose is now bleeding as hell because your message is in ENGLISH!!!

pwede naman tayong mag Filipino  hahaha char!!! salamat Pakner. Una sa lahat, this was your idea. Sinunod ko lang po ang request ni Madam bilang head ng Comdev. Pangalawa, alam kong madaming gustong tumulong. Kaya nga tuwang tuwa ako sa mga tao ngayong araw dahil they are willing to help. Pangatlo, as long as kaya nating tumulong, we will do our part. Para ano pa't pinagpala tayong mabuhay at hindi mapahamak kahit na malakas din ang ulan sa atin.

masarap makatulong  and i'm happy to say, madaming gustong tumulong  I LOVE YOU TOO, PAKNER!


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from him again


hahaha. oo nga naman, i was just greatly touched of the efforts of the whole community. It was never my own idea, it was never Aure's neither Jesha's. It is OUR idea kasi we are always ready to help. Kaya nga even though medyo nahirapan ang ComDev sa strict na Policy Board, I am more willing to insist na ituloy at ipursue ang projects ng comdev because of two reasons:

1. Community Development is the work of God. The Lord works in us and in our lives when we help. We share our blessings so that others would feel the warm embrace of Jesus through us.

2. DAHIL SA'YO. Syempre pakner ko ang super leader ng comdev at syempre rin hinding- hindi ko naman papabayaan ang aking minamahal na pakner. That's more than true!

Again pakner, maraming maraming salamat. Hindi man tayo palagiang nagkakausap at nagkakasama dahil sa kanya- kanya nating buhay, I want you to know that you are greatly appreciated. Masarap matulog ng nasasabihan ang maraming tao, lalo na ang malapit sa'yo kung gaano sila kahalaga sa buhay mo, like you.

I will tell the whole world how good and loving you are!


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it is always and forever overwhelming to receive a message from someone saying how much they treasure you and how much they value you as a person and as a friend. i am really lucky to have a friend like him.


God bless :)

Message from Lalaine (08-04-11)

Dear Kambal,

Just to say, I miss you already. I know, we're always seeing each other because we are classmates but because of our busy schedules and academic-related work, I have this thought that I miss you. I do not have updates of how you were these past days, or if ever you have problems. 

I just want you to know that I'm just here Kambal. Despite all the things happening around, I'm still here. Thank you too for everything. There were lots of things to be thankful of - and those just transcend words. Bottom line, I always owe you my happiness. You're a big part of my college life. Looking forward to be your best friend even after the end of this academic year, even after we meet our other halves and even after the end of forever. 

I love you, Kat. Please don't forget that I'm here for you, no matter what. I care, and I will always care for a friend like you. 

,
LAINE (kambal)

Psychology test

http://powerpoint.office.live.com/p/PowerPointView.aspx?FBsrc=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2Fattachments%2Fdoc_preview.php%3Fmid%3Did.241135039243546%26mid_root%3Did.223155631054346%26id%3D543047177cd019c747fe5d3b36120e1a%26metadata&access_token=100000035418791%3AAQC9gaDrosGgTkq8&title=psychology_test

I tried this test and i am satisfied with the results. It's kinda funny how a simple test can really affect your life.

Priorities::

Family
Money
Pride
Love
Career

Personality is tough
My (future) partner is elegant? (i wonder why? haha more elegant than i am?)
Enemies are unappreciated. Maybe the reason why we become foes.
Sex interpretation is HOT. I even wrote "nakakagising" (hahaha)
My life is broad. (i really had a hard time with this one)

i'll never forget "A"
"L" is my true friend
My "S" is the one i truly love
"I" is my twin soul
and i will remember "F" for the rest of my life (fuck)

13, thursday :) when? i really don't know.

MyUste Picture

my myuste picture is so ugly. i am irritated. hahaha i wish i can change this picture and have my old ID photo back. :(

my letterman jacket (PUSA)

This is my dream letterman jacket. I've been looking for this for a month! i can't believe imma have this at last! august 18 baby! imma have you! at last! thanks to my ever loving Pok, Elaine Marcos. :)

This's the only happiness i have now :)) a new jacket for my jacket collection. i'm really a jacket lover so i think imma die just to have this (i know, i'm oa :)

Now, i'm broke :) hahaha but i don't care. this's my ever dream jacket :))

Thank you Lord, you're the BEST!

alone

by Kat Ongoco

it's raining
the wind's as cold as ice
doors causing that scary noise

headache
it's as if there's a stone inside

i can hear the crack
i can hear the whistle
i can hear the beat

all i know is the noise
there is noise
i don't know what and why
who and how

i'm not sure
i can't take the risk
i'm not strong

i only think i am
but i know i'm not

i can see the darkness
the sadness
i can hear nothingness

i can feel the coldest feeling
that feeling that only I can feel
i who am alone.


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i don't know why i feel alone these past few days. maybe i'm just over reacting, over thinking and whatever.

God Speed :)

smile kat :)